my lover of going on 6 years currently is so bleh. Like I love him and he’s my best friend but I haven’t seen him days and he makes no effort to have conversations about actual things. All he talks about is his job. He doesn’t ask to see me, barely asks me about my day, my plans, my feelings. been feeling antsy about Valentine’s Day coming up because for the past 3 years he hasn’t done anything for me for Valentine’s Day. Two years ago he asked me the day before if I wanted to do something for Valentine’s Day. Ugh!!!! Be for real. He says things like our anniversary and Valentine’s Day should be planned together bc it’s not my birthday, it’s about “both of us.” God. even if that’s true, how come I always go above and beyond for both of those events. He’s so unromantic sometimes that it hurts my soul. I’m not a materialistic person at all but I am a romantic. I don’t believe he understands the difference between the two. Last thing a girl wants is to tell a guy how to take her out on a date or something. I mean he’s known me for years, he knows what I like what I eat what I whatever! He used to complain and say it was because he didn’t have money. Ok I told him, how come I can come up with at least 10 different things you could do to be romantic or spontaneous or show someone they’re special in 5 minutes. Idk what it is, but the season of love is approaching and I am not feeling it at all.
Author: Paola Gonzalez
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at a bookshop
currently at a local small bookshop in town, waiting for my car to get cleaned. I’m listening to this group of older folks, talking about how they want to individually impact the “revolution.” As I sit here on a nearby couch, I feel at ease, first hand experiencing real grown ups who have lived a whole life, feeling the same feelings I feel as a young woman. These people are frustrated and exhausted with the hateful agendas of trump and his political party. As am I. They discuss with so much knowledge the impact of trumps current and future plans. They discuss ICE spotting in town, and towns surrounding us. They seem to voice every single thought and fear I’ve been feeling lately. I’m working it out in my head while they work it out with each other. I feel heard, and at peace that we aren’t alone.
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random human moment
i was driving back from campus today and noticed how every single car on the road looked so dirty, we all have gross grey cars with salt and snow crap on it right now from that snow storm a few days ago. we’re all just the same almost. i smiled to myself because most people wouldn’t even realize something so mundane as that. all of our little crusty cars driving around to get to where we need to be. cute
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introducing me
being 20 years old is hard. being 20 years old and a woman is hard. being a woman is hard. but here I am, discovering my place in this world, if I even have one. I decided to make this blog as an outlet, to let my frustrations out and analyze myself and the rest of this literally insane world. 20 years old with no clue where i’m headed, but with lots to say about where i’ve been.
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